So although i never really blogged that much before i found myself not being able to blog or say exactly what was on my mind for the longest time. I was in the most miserable and self damaging of phases that i've ever been through. 
My life has sucked tremendously for the past maybe year or so if not more. I was a miserable snappy bitch. I ate too much, drunk too much and spent money  on the dumbest of dumb things. I was self sabotage at its best. 
If i was to go down this page and list the reckless, hazardous things i did, it would
only serve to remind me of what a dumb jackass i was. 
But i'm writing this to say that i'm over that hump. I've climbed out of the valley of
despair and i'm ready to climb back up. 


I've made a consensus decision to be better, to do better, and to treat myself better.
I'm worth more than that, my son deserves better than that. Depression, lost of 
self-worth, and learned helplessness is a bitch.But guess what i'm coming for you, 
and not only am i coming for you, i'm gonna whoop ya ass when I do catch you.


So here i go back on my path to happiness, success, and not being emo!